dear virtual diary,
it’s been a while, huh?
so, yeah, the Queering the Museum project went well. i made a film short related to some parts of my life that was exhibited there and will be screened around the country this fall as part of a film project exploring queer women of color (yeah, i know what my skin looks like). i’ve been asked to collaborate on the creation of a monthly event here in Seattle that may end up resulting in, finally, getting some remuneration. my recent audition went well and i was cast in a performance art piece that will premier at the Seattle Fringe Fest in September of this year.
i’ve managed to reconcile my situation in life, to some degree even though not all of the states would agree with this. that does, of course, make things more difficult. some of them are having a very difficult time letting go and so i try to help more than normal, perhaps, in that way. i recently found out i have another son, Devon, from a woman that i loved many, many years ago. we’ve spoken on the phone yet it is, understandably, difficult for him.
life has taken so many twists and turns that even though i could never have expected this i did expect that Rachel would leave me. she would often tell me that i would leave her but she knew that i never would. i now believe that she left because she knew that i wouldn’t and that i couldn’t be free if i stayed. i prefer this view even if it’s not accurate.