Muse was playing Seattle last night and i attended the show. the first concert that i’ve been too since Rush’s Vapor Trails tour nearly 10 years ago. R didn’t like to go to live music with me even though she did before she met me. i couldn’t really understand it. it was an amazing show and a really memorable night. So many things have changed… life…what i even really want in this game…what it even means and why i bother playing.
i miss my son so much that i can hardly bear it. i recall every moment of the day he was born, i raised him nearly by myself for the first 4 years and then the ex came and took it all away and reduced me to being, in her eyes, another loser without a job. of course she dismisses the severe physical disability which prevents me from working.
