It’s been awhile since i’ve written to you son. I’m sorry about that. It’s been really hard the past month or so. I’m sorry that I haven’t been able to call more often. No excuses. Self states haven’t done so and i apologize. I wonder if you’ll ever even read these any time… i trust that you will and so i will continue to write them as i’m able. If i dwell on it too much Alexander i can do nothing but cry and feel terribly guilty over what has happened. Your mother took from you and i what can never be replaced. I’m so sorry my son.